Spirited Away

Back to the training yesterday,sensei asked us to practise in front of all the students.When that was on my turn,I almost forgot everything,my brain suddenly became blank.:P What's up then? But sensei hasn't said anything,what I know was that I practised too little.I skipped lots of training and I always found reasonable excuse for myself.And this time wasn't spirited away.That my own fault! And for blaming me,I am ill today.Bad cold has been a 2-month routine:P I deserve it.And I will stay at home and review my French and study hard study hard studay hard though I will leave university very soon.

Faire de ma dissertation

It was so ...........hard to start the first sentense of my dissertation.Why I always want a nice begin then I can continue to do the rest?It's always like this,if I don't have any idea about the first word or the title,I won't start from the 2nd step or 3rd step.Take my first e-magazine as an example,I have been struggling with the background music for days,then a piece of music came to my mind,very nice title but i've no idea about the lyrics.Then that's it.All the things sorted in 1 hour.God. Yep.Just do it,and u will be fine..............
So eventually,I got the first sentense of my dissertation.And I am ready for the other 7990 words to come up.Hey,they are coming with any impossible form.Chinese,English,pictures,music and masks.........I came back to those days to be a Bacchai.Crazy and blessed Bacchai.Go crazy for ur first step,otherwise I will die from the very begining.....Oh,I should got up at 6 a.m. tomorrow.French Sunday,Im coming........Bonjour!

purposeful or aimless

First day of classes in my final semester,i was excited.........angry............disappointed.What to say and how to say to my classmates,they kept chatting drinking and laughing all the time.Basically,they are allowed to quit these two classes in the name of intership or contract work.But why,they want those credits as well but they don't deserve them.What kind of life they want?wasting time and life in that cold classroom and aimless precious time.They still have no idea about that dissertation after thinking about for almost half a year!Is this the effectiveness that they have?Tao asked me to do some search for the new member of our Party,but what she did was to watch korea TV series in her accommodation.And she just said to me to write what I want coz no one would like to read them.I can forsee the future of Communist Party.Please don't be that,we just uni student member,I don't wanna to be a typical awful one!
The point is I must attend the classes coz I am the vice monitor.It's nothing for the name but crucial for that responsibility!
The only thing cheered me up today was the training.My partner is a 50-year-old uncle.And he is a kind and helpful senior.Every time I improved, he would said something to encourage me.
Sometimes the things that we choose to do is to approach our goal for life,but aikido is not that kind of purposeful or aimless.Purposeful is a negative word in Chinese.If I take the reason to get kagama to practise,I would never fully understand the deep and true meaning of aiki.I used to think about that,truely.Now I give up the idea but practise.
However,life must have some purposes to drive you to keep going.We are doing most things to get more and get better for our life.Is it wrong? no.
If someone is doing something without any profitable purpose,then there are must be some reasons and we can't say he/she is aimless.Anyway,I am doing all the things for my reasons and my purposes for life!

Stephanie----------For 9th March father's 48th birthday! with Love,kisses and hugs

Lantern Festival----2007

It was raining in the morning and everyone thought it would be a terrible weather until the whole day.But it was Lantern Festival,the day that I always go out for Lanterns and performance.I went out with Sharon and we would go to Pudong to meet another doodee up.That strong wind for him was incredible cold coz he never experienced winter.Sure,because he lives in Malaysia.Oh,it would be what kind of life if there is no other season but summer all the time.Sunshine,Beach,and ..........T-shirt all year around.hahaha but why he doesn't look black?! Actually this is also my first time to celebrate Lantern Festival in Chenghuang Temple.With wonderful food and colorful Lanterns,we joined the current of people,walking and taking pics.What's more,we threw the wish coin to the good luck tree.I wasn't so satisfied with the night pics that I took last night but enjoyed the Lanterns very much.I saw lots of photographers taking pics with tripod.OMG,it wasn't wise to forget my tripod at home.Then I walked along the bund with wk,topics are always about aikido,trips and doodee.wk said if we talked about doodee more,I can be the doodee No.3.wahahaha But that's a name for boy,never mind,I wanna to be the first female doodee la.

more pics about festival and wk and Sharon: http://www.flickr.com/photos/stephaniefeng/

bicycle diary 2

aya.I just found I've made lots of spelling mistakes.:(
It's me again.Today,we had a short journey to the metro station,then stephanie took the metro to take photo.Sorry,she was taken photo.This is the first working day in Shanghai,around 5 o'clock.All the staff and students were full with this city.Buses,bicycles,motors,cars,metro.People were here and there in every possible place.Her friend has joined the part of the city life which has become one the staff in working class.2 of her friends are busy with preparing their exchange programme in korea.But she is still struggling with applying for a job.No reply again.Find two more new jobs today.Still look forward to the reply!I might send her home tomorrow to get her new camera.Good idea!And then back to start her dissertation.Yep.
Nice dream Stephanie.

bicycle diary

hey,im stephanie's new bicycle.Yesterday was my first trip with her.There used to a film called 17 years old's bicycle.She hasn't riden bike for half a year,so she looked a little tired after 30 mins riding.I guess she learned to ride bike something like 8 years old.She used to crash into every possible things alongside the road.Anyway,safe journey,stephanie.Her father is a driver,but why she doesn't want to learn driving?Strange girl.Father promised to buy a car if she learn to drive.But she refused and said,riding bicycle is good for health.Yep,in her countryside hometown is good for her health,but now she lives in the city center in Shanghai,there are nothing but cars and polluted air.Here comes dirty Stephanie.Hey,hey,take a shower first before U go to bed.
There is a bicycle team in stephanie's hometown.All of them are the similar age like her grandpa.They are happy and healthy old people.........God bless them!
Now,in the cornor of garage in stephanie's home,her bicycle and her grandpa's bicycle have gathered together,side by side.:)
I will take care of stephanie coz she lives in this big city by herself.Call me out when you need me.

water

Now is Beijing time 2:50 a.m.. I was waken up by the nightmare just now.Because of thirsy,I dreamed a series of horrible pictures and even ...............I tried to wake up from my nightmare.I just found I was in my new house,everything to me is new including the switch of lights.I found no cold water for me but some pepsi.But now Pepsi for me is nothing.I feel thirsy and dying and panic.Suddently reminded me same thing happened to me last time in Edinburgh,I was in that youth hostle and having nightmare because of feeling thirsy.I got up several times to find water but the same no cold water for me. The only thing I did was to drink the tag water.When someone came,I would stop drinking.If they left,I would continue drinking like a begger.It was hard to imagine how greedy and poor I was!

When water is avaible to me,I just choose pepsi all the time.

Water is always the symbol of life,I used to afriad of him,I used to ignore him.

My female friends always suggest me to drink at least 18 cups of water a day,it's good for girl to drink as much as water a day.

There is also a saying that Female is made of water.

Sorry for Mr. Water!

Stephanie-----------Don't want to be the girl who is made of Pepsi any more!